Poetry finally chased me down and caught hold of me :) Inspired by the movie “P.S. I Love You.” Consider it a double entendre ;) — Hello again
It’s been a long while
I have seen so much, experienced so much
Met people who reminded me of you
Many times I’ve wanted to stay away for good
Many times I’ve wanted to come back to you
But why should I when we have such a history
Of laughter, fun, smiles, love, yes
But also of challenges, correction: littered with challenges
It would be so much easier to leave it all behind, leave you behind
And start afresh. With someone, somewhere who’s more sure
More certain, more clear, more easy to get along with? Someone who doesn’t make me so damn angry all the time!
Surely, that’s what I should do…right?
I’ve thought that so many times
But looking back, I’m who I am today precisely because of you
Because of us, and especially because of our struggles
It might be easier elsewhere, but I don’t think it would be as profound
Not for me at least
With you, I’m forced to think anew
To give up notions of black and white
To find strength from only God knows where
And to feel such a passion, a burning desire, to live for something, for someone
So you see, try as I might, I find myself here
At this crossroads again, choosing between versions of myself
I know you can be as stubborn as a mule
And I know there are some who will make us all the more harder to envision
But I believe in this thing we got going on
With every fiber of my being
And so. Well, I can’t give up
Not on you, not on me, and certainly not on us
We are a match made in heaven, proclaimed as one by God himself
If He saw fit to put us together, tell me, who has the power to thrust us asunder?
No one. Except Allah, if He so wishes.
I know, I know, I’m talking crazy right?
I have nothing to go by than this burning inside my heart
And yes, it freaks the daylights out of me
It’s not going to be easy, it never has been
But I think we’re worth it
Worth all the tears, the disappointments, the heartaches
Worth all the nays anyone – including those we love – might say to us
At the end of the day, we’re still learning our way
But if there’s one thing I know for sure,
It’s that challenge is where growth is at
And as nerdy as it sounds, I never want to stop learning
So, GHAfrica, I guess we’re stuck together. For better, or (hopefully not) for worse
I’m in. All the way. With heart, body, mind, and soul.
P.S. I love you.
Jemila Abdulai is the creative director, editor and founder of the award-winning website Circumspecte.com. A media and international development professional and economist by training, she combines her business, communications and project management expertise with her strong passion for Africa. Besides writing and reading, she enjoys travel, global cuisine, movies, and good design.